Thursday, October 21, 2010

~feeling sad~

 Do you see how pretty the maple in my backyard is? It is the third week in October and the colors are always pretty this week. I had never really noticed before....that is until my sister started to come home for a fall visit. My sister lives 2000 miles away in Texas. I love her visits and she loved the fall, change of season. One time I picked her up at Logan and we drove to Freeport for a weekend of shopping, eating and relaxing. We laughed and talked. We stayed at a quaint B&B. I needed the time away from work and I needed to see the colors, smell the air and slow down in general. We planned on taking our Mom the next year and sadly we lost her in September and never made the trip. Our Mom was so looking forward to it....when I went to her home after she was gone, there sat the LLBean catalogue she had been looking through...see one should not wait or say next time. Anyway, we visited my sister last year and had our Fall in Texas. Now this year she could not get away and I am feeling kind of sad. Just missing our time together. Missing my sister and my Mom. Does that ever go away?

OK, I am feeling so sorry for myself, but it is a beautiful time of year and my sister has made me more aware of my surroundings and I have stopped and taken the time to smell the beautiful crisp Autum air....with a touch of woodsmoke.
I hope you all take the time to enjoy the season and appreciate your family!


lisa said...

(((HUGS))) It does get easier but certain things bring it all back.. My mom has been gone 10 years now and sometimes it doesn't feel that way when something comes up...then other moments I feel it has been such a long time since she has been gone.. At first she was in my thoughts every day..I wanted to pick up the phone and just chat.. now there are several days that go by that I don't think about her.. Most of the time I have talks with her when times are tough going..She always knew what to say.. I embrace the tears and memories I still have with my mom..Lisa

Grammee Linda said...

I am sure it is very hard to not have been with your sister this year ...and missing your mom so! I have not lost a parent to death so I have no words of wisdom. I have lost my mom in a totally different way. The body is there but the person is not the same. It is still sinking in that I won't be doing fun things with my mom anymore either.

I hope you and your sister can plan something special before another year passes!

Big hugs!!

The Farmers Oldest Daughter said...

You are so right, appreciate your family. I still have my mother but live far from her. She is unable to do many things any longer.

Take care and you will always have such loving and fun memories.

sonya said...

Hi Donna,
Thanks for stopping by my new blog! And no, I don't think you ever stop missing someone after they are gone. I lost my mom in July and so many times I've went to the phone to call her and then I remember. It has been a hard year for so many, we have to just keep focusing on being thankful for what and who we do have and appreciate every minute. My Son-in-law was killed last month too and that has been harder than losing my mother. She was ill and older and ready to go and had been suffering. My SIL was taken suddenly and still young with children at home. Such a tradegy for us all especially my daughter and children. It has been hard to think about our blessings but we truly have many.
Thanks again for stopping in...
Counting My Blessings,